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Sunday, 29 June 2008

waiting

I hate waiting. Im an impatient person, I have come to terms with that one, with myself and I really dont have a problem with it. I dont have, well i have never really had a problem with being a bitch either. I am who I am and I dont care what anyone thinks of me. I know who I am, and what other people think of me isnt going to change the way i am. I am not a rude obnoxious person. I can be loud, but only when Im angry.
I have learned alot about myself. I dont have a problem with standing up for something or someone that I believe in. I do what I need to do and put no one except for david and my dogs in front of that. I am not so giving. I had a lot of bad experiences and have been used to many times to help people out. Hell who has helpped me out when I was broke and needed to pay my bills? one person.... and thats it, and he holds a special place in my heart. He has helpped david and i in every way possible... because of him we have a place in the states to call our own, we have a nice piece of land that he gave us for when we come home for good. Hes the only person that has been willing enough to help us in the ONE hour of need that we have had. Why should i help anyone else when they wouldnt help me if i really needed it? NO thanks... Im tired of being a giving sweet person. NO MORE.. well i havent been since after i graduated from highschool.
Im smarter in things that I do. Im not so quick to make judgements, and not so quick to try and make friends. I have learned to be skeptical of people, and not to trust so easily. Because when you trust easily, you get walked on and then they walk right out of your life.
Im done with the stupid people in life. I can handle the occasional stupidity, but if I talk to you and your straight STUPID... I will let you know that I would rather not associate myself with you and leave.
Call me a bitch, call me cold hearted, but who was really there when i needed them the most? In life, you find out who you can count on and who you thought you could count on. There 2 totally different things. I just hope that everyone can find the difference between the two and be blessed with the common sense to figure out who are the ones you can count on!

Sunday, 15 June 2008

Grown up....

Its amazing when I look back and read all these stupid web blogs I have posted. Though I know they probably werent stupid 3 years ago.

I am happily married. with 2 dogs. I am married to a wonderful man. He has made me happier than I could have ever dreamed. My husband is 23 years old, and a United States Marine. He is currently stationed in Iraq. We have been married for a year and a half now. His name is David Weatherspoon. That would make me Wendy Weatherspoon! :D Never would have guessed that I would marry Corey's (my ex) best friend. Go figure right? It always seems to work out that way.

I have grown up a lot and its amazing when I look back and see how much I have actually grown. I am more mature than I was my temper has gotten better as has my attitude. I'm more caring as a person, and I know that others have feelings, that mine aren't the only ones that matter. I have learned to be less competitive and more easy going. I have learned that I need to let things roll off my back and not worry about the small stuff. I have also learned one of my favorite and most hated things my mom and dad used to tell me... PICK YOUR BATTLES. I have learned which ones are worth fighting for and which ones are not. That has been a very valuable lesson for me, one which I cherish! lol. I have found that people change, whether or not you want them to, everyone changes, people move on and some friendships don't work, they fall apart, and you seem to grow apart. I have realized this. The person I used to consider my best friend has become more of a stranger than what i used to think. But it happens. Life happens and theres nothing anyone can do about it.

But when god closes a door he opens a window. I have learned that.
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Saturday, 19 November 2005

ok...

so a lot has happened since i last wrote... me and my baby jonathan are going strong.. and im sooo in love... hehe! :D were going to Iowa from Dec. 14th thru Jan. 5th being back in Oki on Jan. 6th... hehe!

I know what im getting for xmas though..and im a little pissed that i found out...i wish it could have been a surprise.. even though i hate them... IM GETTING ENGAGED! hehe! im sooo excited... my mom and i were talking about it after i found out, and i told my mom that i am going to marry him, and we are going to make beautiful babies.. hehe! my mom was like i have faith in you, in him, and in your relationship... she loves jonathan as a son in law, she said if she had to pick a son in law, he would be it, and if she had to pick a husband for me, he would be it. I was like AWWW... mommy... i love you! hehe! well i have my pics with my hubby up on myspace, so go take a look... hehe!

wendy

Thursday, 27 October 2005

Im learning new things about myself by the day, and im loving it... hehe!

I learned what it means to know someone is "THE ONE" my best friend told me about how it feels...and i think im experiencing it... actually... I KNOW IM EXPERIENCING IT! hehe!

Im so in love with jonathan and i knew he was the one from the first kiss... and katie and i had this thing that we would know a guy is the one from three things: 1)from the first kiss 2)he kisses our forehead 3) kisses me in the rain....

Well our first kiss was like in the movies i totally felt like i was in heaven, that my feet has left the ground... and then the other night...he kissed me in the rain, he has kissed my forehead several times... i know hes the one... my mom knows that hes the one..she has told me how good of a man i have... i dunno... i do know that he is the one and that i love him more than anything...the bad thing about it... is that hes like "Wendy you are the one for me..." it seems so corny but i told him well thats good... because Jonathan you are the one for me...

He told all his friends back home that hes bringing his fiancee home...and i was like since when did we get engaged?!?! what the fuck?? i was like im not calling you my fiancee until we "OFFICIALLY" get engaged... ok? i mean you can call me your fiancee...but im not going to call you my fiancee until i have the ring on my finger and you have got on that one knee and asked me to be your wife... hehe!

well i know if it doesnt happen within the next month its going to happen either x-mas eve... or xmas day... im sooo excited... im gunna get engaged... i told katie... i can marry this man...and have no regrets about going into the air force being engaged... my mom thinks its awesome, that i found someone who will do anything for me, and will treat me with total and complete respect and everyone that meets him, there hasnt been one bad thing that has been said about him, i havent messed up any friendships with this one or anything...so... yeah! hes it...i love him...

If anyone wants to talk shit about it...dont do it over myspace or xanga... do it on my comment space...because it would just be stupid to do it anywhere else.... Though i dont know... i dont care either... i have my best friend and my future husband...oh and btw... im not following anyones lead... im not trying to be a poser...i found someone at an odd time, and we got close quick and its working out okay...its like my brother and my friend quick engagement...still going strong...so if you got something to say...say it to me...please... i would appreciate it...

As for my friends... i really appreciate all the advice and the support that i have gotten from you...thank you...you guys mean the world to me...i would still be in a bad relationship without yall thanks...

Wendy